Hi aba,
This hobby has so much to offer. Some like yourself, enjoy the learning experience that can be had by learning to fly a control line model airplane without crashing. As one learns how to "fly" a plane and ‘control it rather than it controlling you’ can also bring much satisfaction. Learning to put a kit together or modify a kit can also bring much joy. Then, there is scratch building your own model and learning how to put a finish that you can be proud of, this can be a source of great accomplishment.
It’s really a matter of progression and how far you would like to go in this hobby. Part of the progression can be competition. Competition can also be used to measure your progress. Again, some like yourself, for whatever reason, prefer not to mingle or socialize and go it alone. And that’s fine. Whatever you choose ---- enjoy it!
I was introduced to this hobby when I was 10 years old and had the help of many individuals along the way through my teenage years and into my early 20's. As I learned how to fly and could do what I wanted the plane to do --- it was a blast! Then some older ones were competing in various contests and would take me along to watch. What I saw at a contest back in the mid 60's to the early 70's was amazing. After seeing a contest, I asked how can I do that? Again, many individual came to my aid. Mind you, as a kid, I didn't have much money and my parents could barely put food on the table. But the help I received to get started competing was more than I ever expected. I have always been a competitive person, be it baseball, football, or tiddlywinks, it doesn't matter, I want to do my best.
I started competing in my mid-teens and enjoyed it very much. Then work, marriage, raising and caring for a family changed all that. Now in my 60's, retired, with all my kids grown and out of the house, I've enjoyed getting back into this marvelous hobby. It wasn't long for the competition bug to bit me once more. But it's different now. In the 60's & 70's control line model airplanes seemed to be everywhere. It wasn't difficult to find a school yard and have several individuals go out and fly on the weekends.
Now I access to a soccer field that I can go out in morning during the middle of the week to fly, but now I'm flying by myself. Gone are the hobby shops, model airplane clubs and as well as the old flying sites that we use to enjoy. I miss the days of having several friends and planes show up and we would fly all afternoon.
Getting involved in competing (or spectating) brings some of that back. It keeps you in touch with those who still have a passion for the great hobby that are more than happy to "give the shirt off their backs".
But I also like to torture myself. When competing there’s no better feeling that to be nervous, the excitement, the adrenaline rush - it makes you feel alive! And when you mess up – learn from it!
Enjoy