Andre, I feel your frustrations. I too am trying to make my way back into activity after an accident, about 12 years ago, left me With some problems in my hands. Where I live, there are few sources of the ingredients to mix my own fuel.
I remember back when I flew a lot of RC. My flying club had me find a good choice of fuel that the club could make available to its members. I used FHS Red Max out of Florida. That's where I went for my present needs, and I'm pleased with the results. They blended exactly what I wanted. I even got oil for my Diesel engines in the same order. As the name suggests, their oil usually has a red tint. I don't care for the slight red color shift, on the bottom of my plane, over time that sometimes occurred for me, so I asked that the coloring be left out, which they were able to do.
you might want to check them out. their phone number is (800) 742-8484. The website is fhsoils.com.
Welcome back and I'm looking forward to your postings about your journey.
John Miller