Look at the pattern as a WO, inverted and a bunch of loops in various shapes and combinations. This attitude may help you get over the mental anguish hurdles!
Getting your model to fly to the best of its ability is key and makes the rest much easier. Simple stuff matters, like equal inside/outside turn. Not having achieved that will mess up your timing and eventually will result in a new bag of kindling. Probably sooner, rather than later.

Steve