Matt I know exactly what you are feeling. I got my 1st ride at about age 12, Piper Cherokee that a friend of my Dad's had part ownership in. I didn't get left seat but that didn't matter, flying form the right seat and feeling the plane respond to my feet and hands was incredible. At school the next day I told some friends about it, and either they thought I was blowing smoke or didn't care. No matter , cause I was hooked.
The thing that triggered my chance to fly that day was a get together at our house, and one of the guests was the Cherokee owner. My dad introduced him to me and said he had an airplane, I said " Be right back" and ran to my room and brought back my 1/2A profile Sterling Thunderbolt. He looked it over and said it was nice, asked if I had any more. My Dad laughed and said - lets go to his room. At that time there was about a dozen 1/72 scale planes hanging from the ceiling, and the wall above my bed was covered with box top art, pictures and other airplane stuff.
He said I obviously had "The sickness", and I needed a treatment. next week we were sailing into the blue and I was in the clouds like you.
You once asked what kind of work I did to get to travel around and also geet to fly with Control Line groups like the N.W Fireballs. My current job title has nothing to do with aviation, but my interests in all things avaiation related is what got me here. I did not become a pilot, but eventually went to school and earned my FAA Airframe and Powerplant technicians Liscense. Worked at a couple airlines for 10 years or so, spinning wrenches and enjoying touching the hardware, many a late night power run in a twin turbo-prop, engine changes etc., life was good. I ended up in the Enginnering Dept of a little start-up called AirTran. I discovered that pushing paper insteaed of using my mmechanical skills was not as fun, and when an offer came to move into Semi-conductor Equipment support I left the airline world and started spinning wrenches again- and life was good once more.
The moral of the story is- you never know where your interests and passions will take you, but aviation can lead you to places you might not have gone without that influence. It did for me, and I still get to Fly Stunt and enjoy life!