Bill
Tears as I write this, did not know of your Max, but have had several 4 legged family members pass in my arms and know that pain very well
Many folks in this position tend to say "never again" and in the past, I too, had that sentiment....but along the way the Lord put another helpless creature in my path and I have NEVER regretted providing a healthy, safe, and loving home--- Now up to five extended "children" with our recently rescued Gus. A very sad sack French Bull dog who was much abused and very sickly a mere three weeks ago...now on the mend and a cherished addition---- off to hospital in a few days to kill the nasty worms in his heart
I related your story to my wife and we both have you in our prayers as you deal with the pain and longing
I hope you open you heart again to another